I don't know how to rest.
My sweet husband said it best when he texted me today,
"You can't make things happen babe. Sometimes you have to be [still].ful."
Nevermind that he used the wrong kind of brackets ( {these pretty ones} are the ones reserved for {good} things). Or that there's only one "l" instead of two on the "full" part.
He was spot on with this one.
I can't tell you how thankful I am for a man that knows my heart so well, even when he's calling me out. Because there's also no one who knows better how to calm it and lead it back to the Lord.
His words were very reminiscent of this verse,
"The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."
Exodus 14:14
Right now our life's a little chaotic. I'm trying to think of it as {adventure}.full. That's gonna be another post for another day. In just about 6 weeks, we're uprooting our life and moving to Colorado for grad school and some much needed growing up. And I'm so excited. The only problem is that we have NO CLUE how we're gonna make money or where we're gonna live.
No big deal.
If you trust God.
Which I'm realizing how little I do. I've been working tirelessly to figure out a plan for our move, finding jobs, applying for school and scholarships, figuring out classes, and researching housing options. I've barely given myself time to breathe.
And I'm SO tired.
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest."
Matthew 11:28
I don't remember the last time I let myself be {still} and {rest}. But I'm thinking that only when I take the time to do that and put everything in God's hands will I have surrendered the space in my heart that he needs to take me from being [rest].less to {rest}.full.
